Lost

I want to run. Disappear and for no one to find me. My heart is racing and i feel sick to my stomach.

I was just told i will be in charged of a store once again. I dont want to. I really dont.

I hate how they assign me without asking if I'm available. Like really. Do you want me to cancel all my plans so i can help me.

But guess what. Im probably not going to even complaint to them. Thats how bad of a self defender of myself i am.

I need to learn how to take care of myself better. Speak upbfor myself. Not let others go over me and stomp on me. But i just don't know how.

My brain is working in over drive trying to think of an excuse to get out of it somehow. But i know there is no valid reason. They need me and im probably not going to say anything but of course. Yeah ill help. No problem at all.